Haiz...I'm back here again!!!

When i woke up this morning, the first thing that came into my mind was a hymn i used to sing during chapel in school. I sat up and wondered why for a while, thinking was God answering my prayer to him last night?! So I decided that i was going to look up the verse related to this hymn once i got home from school.

School was okay today. Had some discussion & tutorial for china history today. Woah... After 9 wks in school, finally i said something perfect. We were discussing about 'The True Story of Ah Q' and its relation to China.

Prof was asking about the name Ah Q: what does this imply?
Someone said maybe it had something to do with the Qing dynasty?
And i said, it represents the hairstyle during that time (i.e. the pigtail) coz that pigtail was also called the 'queue'. wahaha... and it has been used as a representation of china.
Then Prof said 'excellent answer!'

It sure felt good after so long, been feeling upset and unsettled. I felt myself getting me back abit already. Which is definitely a good start. And after that i went home feeling slightly happier. Things got worst during lunch time...I cldn't really eat, but i had to force myself to. Alot of things came into my mind. Am I all that bad? Am I too shallow? Or simply, I don't think the way my age should be thinking? That HE didn't like me...haiz. Guess I was thinking too much.

Stop with the grumbling. Back to the hymn that came into my mind, this is the actual verse from the bible:

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff will comfort me.

Psalm 23:1-4

I didn't quite get it initially, then a thought dawned on me. I prayed to God asking for help last night and I asked that he forgive me for forsaking him for so long and to re-accept me as his child again. This was his answer to me. It was just amazing. I always believed that God was there, but today I saw how real he could be.

This time, I sure was badly hurt, but I noe God will be there to guide me and help me through these difficult times. Time heals all pain!!!

Aniwei, enough of yakking...got to get back to doing my assignment. Have a MA presentation next wk...Haiz...Jia You bah