Just a random post

At gecko on this monday afternoon is certainly unusual for Rabbito. oh Gecko is a cafe-like eating place just next to the bookshop in school... Had lunch here coz got 4 hrs to spare before meeting up the other gals for project meeting. Y here i wonder... Library is too cold and quiet to study, canteen: sick of the food there, and cannot GO HOME!!!

Usually monday only got 1 lecture from 10-12 and off i go home to rabbito's nest. But today have to wait. Dislike staying in school apart from having to attend classes though...Tat's my working style.

Sitting out here with my china history text that i so want to comprehend, I feel so lost and helpless. Pages full of words, I so do not want to read it, but i have no choice...EXAMS at stake...Haiz. I MISS YOU so much...Things haven't been that smooth since you left. Looking forward to the end of the semester, for a break and for you to return...Owell...

I feel so lonely...this studying is making me very frustrated. I want to do well, but the drive is not there AT ALL!!! I think i lost my ability to remember...and tat's really bad. Wat's history without remembering ur FACTS!!!

ah...can anyone tell me wat to do? I'm trying a new approach...I seriously hope this works, if not I so don't know how i'm going to cope in my exams... Is the last semester already, and things had to turn out this way. I hate it and I want t0 stop it, but i dunno... I guess i think too much at times.

I am so depressed...I need a break from all this...And i need my momentum back...I need the strength to keep running, but it seemed to have all disappeared. I feel lousy... I'm an ESCAPIST, yet i'm trapped here!!!

Haiz...Rabbito's recent life has been filled with dark clouds and it wunt disperse away... You said u hope to see the smile on my face back, but just don't have the reason to smile...I want to, but it's just so difficult...

Should really get back to my books now...a slight distraction & i needed to say it out.