Confused?Dilemma?Exhausted?

It's been a while since i last written an entry. Been rather busy lately coz of the vday flower thingy, but finalli it's all over... Ah so exhausted... we missed our dinner by the sea coz of the delayed deliveries, so we ended up havin dinner at harborfront coffee club!

Watching all the gals whu were surprised by our delivery, duno y suddenly this sense of sadness overwhelmed me... 4yrs plus together, it's already our 5th valentine;s day together...but we havent realli had a veri proper vday spent together. Our 1st spent with our frends & gp of juniors, the 2nd we quarrelled coz he had fieldcamp so we cldnt spend it together, the 3rd i cooked at hme so guess tat was alrite, the 4th i had class till late, so didnt go out & yesterday the 5th spent sending flowers round the island!!! Supposedly a special day for all couples, but guess we nv realli had the special day everybody else enjoys...

Some pple may say it's not tat an important day if both of us are happy together every other day...am i being veri superficial over sumthing like tat??

He & i have been together for 4 yrs 7mths + liao, but today i finalli told him how i felt... we kinda 'broke up' to give me and hopefully him some time to tink over my own emotions and our relationship! I like someone else, and i like him veri much! I'm struggling... It's unfair to him, and i noe he's upset.... I asked for 1mth to tink things thru', if i still love him & the relationship!:(

I realli hope this whole mth will be a gd time for me to sort out my thoughts & also take this time to concentrate on my studies...have been neglecting it coz of CNY & vday!

Haiz...i cried today...and my eyes hurt so much now... thks dear for understanding wat i'm goin thru' now & for willingly giving me the time i want...owell...shall blog till here today...so tired & i need to sleep!!!

Be back soon!!