Numb!Unsettled!Restless!

This is the duno how many millionth time i'm listening to the superstar winner kelvin Tan's CD... I totally love it...got lots of feelings in the way he sings the songs... Some of which describe how i feel right now!

Ai Hen Nan:

Zhi shi ai ni ye nan hen ni ye nan
Ke she de mian qiang
guo jing qian fang ye xu yi wang
wo bei shang de bei shang

Tian mei you ke neng zhai liang
jian jian yi xi huan zhe hei se de jue wang
ming tian wo bu yong qi pan
jin jin bao zhu wo gei wo ni de wen nuan


I can tell no one how i feel deep inside, coz i myself cant even tell myself how i'm feeling lor... it's juz so miserable n numb!! Whu can tell me wat to do? I prayed to God for help, he sent me a dream of him & HIM... it was weird...was it trying to tell me sumthing?? I realli have no idea... (him - bf?; HIM - secret person)

I so badly wanna escape the feelings, the thoughts, the people, but where can i escape to? I noe there's lotz to do, but i cant seem to find a distinctive starting point... buck up gal!!!!